A Mother's Love

On May 31, 2015, my twins graduated from high school.  I obtain a ticket to attend from a young man that had been working with me for a year whom was also graduating with my kids.  This day was very emotional for me. As Mother's Day came and went without a call or a text from them. See it's been this way since 2012.  Yes, my emotions were high. 
I had called the school to be sure I would be allowed in as I had 2 friends coming with me for moral support. I asked their father for tickets but was told to ask them. I did but got no reply from the text or call.  Not a surprise since I text and call but they do not text or call. The school assured me there would be extra tickets on hand. Yet, my nerves were on over drive.
I left early to get there early. I knew where they would be sitting because my dear assistant had marked the spot for me. He knew what this meant to me and wanted me to get seats where I would see them. I did get those seats. After 3 years of not seeing my kids (because they do not want to see me) I saw them....I was so proud of them. I screamed Junior....Ashley......just hoping they would look my way so they would see I did come even though I was not invited. But the place was packed and my voice was drown in the noise. I did see them. My friend got some really good pictures for me. Soon they will be 18 years old and I know one day in it's divine timing they will open their eyes. I love my children with all my heart. All three of them. I never thought I would be an alienated parent. It's part of my story.  I blog about this because I do not know what the future has in store for me or them. But one thing is for sure. I want my twins Ashley and Junior to know that I am so proud of them. I pray they follow their hearts and reach for their dreams and goals. I pray they will be honest, loving people in this world. That they have compassion, love, forgiveness with others because at the end of the day....if YOU say you LOVE God that is required from us.   
Congratulations on your big day! 
Love you forever and always,
Your mother!
Nancy Santana 


On that day before going to the graduation, I recorded a message in my own words. I apologize ahead of time....I did get emotional -------> CLICK