About 3 years ago, I went through the dark night of the soul. I was going through my spiritual awakening. Experiencing many symptoms since 2009 which at the time I really didn't know what was happening to me. I knew I was changing. I knew I was awakening as I began reading and searching for answers as to my experiences. As I continue to grow, heal, and fully move into servicing others in my mission. I remember the dark night.
The dark night of the soul feels like your heart is literally coming off of your chest.
The dark night of the soul feels like your in a dark empty space.
The dark night of the soul feels like the tears will never end.
The dark night of the soul feels like you can't breathe.
The dark night of the soul feels as if no one truly knows the pain deep within.
I have felt the dark night of the soul. I have been up close and personal with the dark night. Sitting right in front of the dark night of the soul. For about 3 months I was dancing with the dark night of the soul. Actually this was the end of 2014 and beginning of 2015. As I look back it was 2015 in which Kundalini Yoga was brought to my awareness once again after 3 years. I have done the inner work. It was a process. I am thankful for the different modalities that I have learned and practice in my daily life. As a Holistic Practitioner, I have made a commitment to assist others move from living in the darkness to living in the light. I know now I was not alone. The Divine was with me during those months of going through the darkness of the soul. I needed to be cracked open to feel what I felt so that I could completely heal. I am not saying that my life is without trials. I would lie if I said this.....I continue to live through the process of being an alienated parent. I still seek guidance and understanding to this lesson. For I know life on earth is school. I am learning daily. I welcome this.....I know it shall all be revealed in God's Divine Timing.
I am grateful. I am blessed.
I am sending you tons of love and light.
As some of you may know.....before I became an Empowerment Lifestyle Coach, I was in an unhealthy relationship for 15 years. The first 11 years, I honestly didn't know I was in an abusive relationship. The signs were not as clear as the signs of physical abuse. I am launching a video series to share signs, tips, education to help others recognize if they are in an unhealthy abusive relationship and I will share resources to get assistance. Today I share one simple sign that you are in an unhealthy relationship.
If this resonates with you. Please check out for any local organizations that assist with domestic violence.
The number to the National Domestic Violence Hotline is 1 (800) 799-SAFE (7233)
Humiliation is NOT an okay thing. If someone has to put you down, yell at you, call you bad names, and make you feel less than.....this is a sure sign you are in an unhealthy abusive relationship.
I am sending you light and love wrapped in Angel Blessings.
An experience I will never forget. My booking was made on Feb 4th after several messages between myself and the host. I explained my purpose for my travel in great detail. I explained this would be my first time using Airbnb. The first time I heard about Airbnb was by a friend whom used it for this same purpose a year earlier. She mentioned it and gave me the information. Prior to that I never had heard about it. On January 15th, my first communication to the host I specific told her that I would be going to a training in which I would be leaving very early at 3 AM and not returning until after 6 PM for the 3 days booked. The pictures looked nice. The RV was in her backyard in a city Miami. What would happen next was not something I imagined. I believe honesty is the best policy. So when I think back at our email exchanges I feel the host should have said "well Nancy, there is a big raccoon that lives in that very tree next to the RV and if you are going to be leaving at the same hours this animal goes looking for food." I personally would not have booked it as I would have been informed properly.
This is my honest review on my first Airbnb experience.
The photos look so zen. An RV in someone's backyard in Miami. There was a deck that looked great for meditation. An outdoor bathroom. Okay, I am a city girl but how bad could this be? I wouldn't be really in the RV for only sleeping. As my teacher training would be from 4 AM until 6 PM and so I would basically be sleeping and showering. The host was just worried I would make noise at 3 AM showering since there were other guest in her other rooms she offers on Airbnb. I assured her I would shower the night before and would be mindful of not making any noise. We began exchanging emails on Jan 15th. I booked the reservation on Feb 4th. On March 23rd, I arrived around 4:30 PM after a day of work and a 2 1/2 hour drive. I was tried. I was hungry. I wanted to relax. Upon meeting the host and expressing how this was my first time using Airbnb. Her question was "Are you a virgin?" there were two men sitting on the steps of one of her rooms and I found that very inappropriate to ask......I thought this was a weird sense of humor to say the least....and I brush it off. She said grab your things and I will show you your home for the next 3 days.
I grabbed one bag. And walked through a yard full leafs. The RV was a little rustier than the photos....thinking the entire placed looked worn out. Next to the RV as you can see from the picture above. There was this beautiful tree right next to the front door of the RV. As she said this is it....I said oh nice....she showed me the outdoor bathroom. A toliet, sink, and shower....outdoors. No doors just bed sheets dividing the shower section and the "door" into the bathroom from the outdoors. See the picture below. She pointed to the RV and said you there was a raccoon that lived in the tree. I thought she was joking and I know she noticed my face. I was like shock.
I don't know about you but whenever I sleep in a new surrounding it takes me a while to get comfortable. Thursday night was no different. I made myself at home as best as I could the RV was small. Two beds on each end of the RV. There were plenty of dishes, candles, and empty bug spray. But there was no running water. The fridge was not disposable. I made do. I unpacked. It was weird to use the bathroom and shower but I did it. The bamboo were not closed tight and I could see in between the cracks which gave me an uncomfortable feeling. And the fact that a young boy came outside to swing on the tree's swing facing the outdoor bathroom while I was in there made me even more uncomfortable. I made my way to the bathroom for a final potty break before I went to bed for the night.
It took me forever to fall to sleep....it must have been around 2 AM and I was awaken by a couple arguing very loudly in the back yard right outside of my door. The male was upset at the female and this latest for about an hour. The only thing between me and the outside world was a screen door with a little hook locking it. The door had a window screen and it didn't shut all the way so there was a crack. No worries....my cell phone had coverage and I had my flashlight.
I was concerned for my safety at this point as the argument continued. Now I totally understand that the host did not have control over two people arguing very loudly. But happened next I feel she did. I also feel she should have mention this to me back when I told her the details for my trip. After about an hour of the noise....they finally stopped and I guessed they fell asleep. Good, now I could fall back to sleep. I kept hearing like noise of what seemed someone was coming towards the RV. After this noise didn't go away, I get out of bed and look out the screen and right in front of me this huge raccoon was looking back at me. It didn't get scared and it didn't run away. The raccoon spend the next 2 1/2 hours going up and down the tree and crossing under the RV. I was like this is crazy. At this point I could not fall back to sleep. I said this is so unsafe. If I get attacked by this animal. It was not scared of me. It did not get scared off when I flashed the light towards it. I packed up my stuff and decided I would leave at the first sign of day light.
I did just this....at about 7:10 AM I left and headed back home. I emailed my teacher and explained to him my situation. He totally understood and said safety first.
I have gotten my money back for the two nights I did not stay there and I appreciate Airbnb for their customer service resolution in this matter. Will I try Airbnb again. Honestly I don't know. My first experience was horrible. I feel the host should have been a little more honest and explained to me that where I would be sleeping a raccoon would also be sharing my surroundings at the very time I would be leaving for my training. I missed some awesome training events because of this....I feel my safety was at stake. I would not want this to happen to someone else. I truly feel there should be a disclosure that wild animals live on the property.
At the end, I KNOW I was not overreacting. I received plenty of signs from my Angels on Friday.
Not all Airbnb experiences end this way. This is my review for MY trip. MY HONEST review.
If you have had a better experience on Airbnb please share below.
Balancing life. The last two months have been a balancing journey. I have been working a lot of hours. So when this happened to me on Wednesday I knew I needed to balance. I woke up out of bed thinking it was Saturday and that I was running late for work. Granted it took me about 5 minutes to slow down and realize that it was Wednesday and that I was not running late for work. I actually commented to my co-worker....that I needed a vacation. Ask and you shall receive. The Universe heard my request. I had my travel arrangements all planned out for my Kundalini Yoga Teacher Training which was to begin on March 24th. On Thursday, when I got out of work and was looking over my emails there was an email from the director of Kundalini Yoga Miami letting us know that the training would be beginning on May 5th instead. Again I thought a million thoughts on cancelling or rescheduling but I realized this was my request. I am staying a beautiful RV in a space that looks very zen. I will take a good book. I will relax. I will get to know my Kundalini Yoga Lead Teachers. I am excited. Law of Attraction at it's best. I will be traveling to Miami on Thursday and I will enjoy a much needed break.
In life we have to find balance....sometimes our heart wants to do everything....we take on so many task. Which causes the mind to go into overload in stress and worries. We find ourselves walking on a tightrope trying to balance all the thoughts we have going on.......sometimes we truly need a little mini vacation to unplug.
I hope to share this journey with you.
Working on your own consciousness is the most important thing that we are doing at any moment, and being love is a supreme creative act. Ram Dass
Yesterday was 3/11 and the Divine sent me so many signs that I was guided to share this blog today. If you know me or follow me on Facebook you are aware that I love signs from my Angelic Team. I receive them on a daily basis. No matter how big or small it may seem, I welcome the guidance. Recapping yesterday was March 11th (3/11) and I worked at MAX'D Out Fitness Center (my night job in which I manage the centers) we are currently short staff which means I am working Saturdays (not my normal schedule) so I had a customer (not a member) come in and purchase a protein shake (we make some delicious shakes) he left me the change for a tip which was $3.11 - well begin that it was March 11th (3/11) and my tip (grateful heart) was $3.11, I decided to look into the guidance my Angelic Team had for me. Angel Number 311 message - Because you're surrounded by so many wise and loving ascended masters, your energy and thoughts have been lifted to a level of instant manifestation. Keep your thoughts centered upon positive and loving topics.
It resonates with my inner being. My heart is overflowing with instant gratitude and I am thankful the Divine is always sending me signs. I also was sent these beautiful sign as well.
The number 3 resonates with me in many ways. First Spiritually it resonates with me because it symbolizes the Divine Trinity (God, Father, & Holy Spirit) And yesterday I found these 3 feathers. Reminder for me it resonates the Divine connection of the Trinity. The second reason the number 3 resonates with me is because I am a mother of 3 children. I have my oldest son Benny and my twins Ashley and Junior. So 3 is my number. I am always so grateful and thankful to God and my Angels for confirming my path. Feeling very positive yesterday with all the signs...I was excited for a movie night with my dear friend Robin. We had made a girls night date to go see the movie "The Shack" and so we went and had dinner prior to the movie.
As I look at this picture capture by my friend Robin at dinner. I see the light from the Divine shining upon me. I actually hadn't seen this photo until after I got home after our evening, the movie, and all the signs I received. Which I am about to share....after seeing the movie last night there is one thing I KNOW for sure....I am here to share God's love. I know I am one with the Divine. I know I am LIGHT and LOVE. As I watched that movie it resonated with everything I try to teach about God's love....forgiving....releasing pain....releasing negativity...releasing those that hurt you.....when we do the inner work of healing our BEing that is when we live in harmony with God's grand plan for our lives. I share this because forgiving can be a tough task. I say this because I have lived this.....forgiving those that have hurt me....that have put my twins against me....forgiving myself for judging myself....allow me to cleanse and release everything that was not servicing me. As I watched the movie....I saw myself in Mac....when I had bitterness and anger.....it wasn't until 2007 in which I began a healing process and began having a relationship with my God that I let go of all the limiting beliefs that kept me blocked. Blocked in a relationship of abused. Blocked in my relationship with my God of my understanding. Everything lead me to the moment that I got on my knees and cried for forgiveness.....and gave forgiveness. I love the movie The Shack and recommend it. Lastly after the movie, feeling very blessed with all the signs the Creator of this amazing Universe has given me along my personal path and my personal relationship with the ONE. Walking out of the movie theater with my friend Robin, I saw this....
Angel Number 444 message - You are guided, protected, supported, and love by your Angels.
My message never judge someone's path. We are not here to judge another's relationship with God. I was lost for many years. Nothing really resonated with me. All the rules and judging that went on....was NOT what my soul (heart) accepted. I know I am an old soul. I know I am an Earth Angel. I was sent to share my love and light. Everything I've been through in my life....it makes sense to me know....how else could I teach love.....as I begin the next phase in my life which is to become a Kundalini Yoga Teacher ...... I know everything I've been practicing up until know has changed my life, has made my relationship with the Creator of this Universe stronger than ever before. I am ONE with God.
My prayer is that you allow yourself to have a relationship with God....to forgive.....to release anger, bitterness, and anything that doesn't serve you. To allow LOVE and LIGHT to cleanse and clear where there is pain. I know that by asking this you will be changed.
Sending you light and love wrapped in Angel Blessings,
Nancy Piardev <3
In 2007, I had reached a point in my life that the sorrow I was living was preparing to awaken me. I was living in a verbally abusive relationship and my inner being was about to shift in a way in which I began to do the inner work. I felt confused, alone, and as if there was no one out there that understood what I was going through. I began to seek out positive books. I would love audio books because I could listen to them while I ironed and cleaned. It was my mental break from the verbal and emotional abuse. Something happened as I continue to follow mentors like Gabby Bernstein, Dr Wayne Dyer, Louise Hays, and Esther Hicks to name a few. All the pain I had endure for the last 11 years were to awaken me spiritually. Even the number resonates with what the Divine was preparing me for.....see I got married in 1996 and in 2007, I began that "awakening" process. During the next few years, my soul continue to seek answers to questions. I went through more sorrow between 2007 - 2012.....and in 2012 my soul cry out in a loud whisper that it was time to move on....it was a flight or die feeling. I could no longer live "pretending" all was well.
I was brought up in a Pentecostal religion in which I never felt it. I resonate with God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit. But I could not resonate with people that would judge others, talk about others, think they were more holy than others. I saw a lot of hypocrites. I awoke in 2012....the Divine had something prepare for me. It is my mission to spread light and love. It is my purpose to assist those that have lost hope in love to heal and choose love. My relationship with the Divine has flourish in such a way that every single day I am grateful for the confirmation I receive. I see love. I feel love. I am love. I am one with God. That is why I become a Mind-Body Spirit Practitioner. I am a Reiki Master. Spiritual Teacher. Empowerment Lifestyle Coach.
If you know me, you know I LOVE signs. And God and my Angels send them to me in many ways every day.
Well in 2011, I began a Facebook page Overcoming Verbal Abuse because I wanted to share my story. Because I felt so alone. The Divine has place me in a place in which I can give hope to those that are in those situations and help them heal. This page has grown over the years. People have share with me their stories. The other day I got an alert I had some new likes. Look at the sign.
I had reached 5,555 likes on this page. And the meaning resonates with my entire being.
Number 5555 meaning – The meaning or the significance of the number 5555, is that through patience, harmony and balance, your desired improvements are being manifested. With the addition of number 2, which indicates peace, harmony and patience. What you have intended is being manifested but requires patience.
I trust that everything is coming to me at the perfect Divine timing. I know as I continue to grow in my spiritual journey. I will continue to be guided and trust my intuition. I shall form a foundation for Overcoming Verbal Abuse. I will write my book. I will have my wellness center.
I am thankful for the Divine Angel Signs I receive daily.
What have you been asking God for, I invite you to think or speak this prayer/intention and release it to the hands of the Divine. Trust it is being answered.
I am sending you healing light and love wrapped in Angel Blessings.
Hello March....how I've been waiting for your arrival. Yesterday I realized I needed to truly begin to work my business. I realized I had not share anything new since December on my site. I felt inspired by the new month to give my site a re-do. What do you think? Would love to hear your comments below. My business is evolving and it will continue as I begin my Kundalini Yoga teacher training on March 24th. I welcome March as I know major shifts will begin to take place. I am determined to focus on my sharing my light with the world. As I think back on the decisions I made to wait on beginning Kundalini Yoga teacher training til now. It feels so right. I was going to take this training in September of 2016 but my intuition told me to wait. With 2017 being a 1 Universal Year it made sense to me to wait to begin something so important til this year. I've been so busy with other things that today as I reflect on my goals and what I wish to accomplish it is very clear. I will focus on my practice. I will continue to make a difference in every contact I engage in with others.
As I sit here working on my website. Listening to a Mantra for Miracles. Expect & Receive Miracles - Ek Ong Kar Sat Gur Prasad by Aykanna I smell the aroma of sage. I see the flame of the candle.
I am grateful because the Divine is supporting, guiding, protecting me and most importantly loves me unconditionally. That is why with each decision I make....I wait for Divine guidance and I trust my intuition. I am connected with God and I trust my guidance. My vision has been clear for a while now since being on my spiritual path. I will have a wellness center in Lehigh. I will share the yoga of awareness. I AM. In God's Divine timing all shall happen....that's the perfect timing.
On Saturday, I attended one of my friends birthday party she was hosting for another friend. It was a goddess celebration. So much magic, light, and love. Lizz my friend and Kundalini Sista played her crystal bowls. So Divine as we were out connecting with Mother Earth and glazing at the stars in the sky. Afterwards we asked for guidance and my card says it all, confirms it all.
As you can see my loves, the Universe has my back and I have been heard. All comes in Divine Timing and I am trusting and having faith. All my prayers have been heard and are being answered.
I invite you to centered and ground yesterday right now. Close your eyes. See, Feel, and Think your intention (prayer) and thank God for hearing and answering your request. It is done.
Sending you so much light and love wrapped in Angel Blessings.
Nancy Santana's passion is to empower, motivate, encourage, and inspire you to reach for your dreams and goals.