I should be sleeping. I didn't drink any energy drink at work.
But I know what is keeping me awake.
My friend saw my daughter today. If I would have stopped to buy myself lunch, I would have ran into her. See I haven't seen my twins in is going on 2 1/2 years. If you've been following me on Facebook, or my Facebook pages....you know the story. I haven't seen them not because I didn't want too. They decided they didn't want to see me. They are not little children that I can go pick them up and they have to come visit me. They are grown teenagers whom if I go pick them up - they can refuse to come with me. I have lived with this for the last 2 1/2 years. Funny thing is we live in the same little town. And I have yet to run into them at Walmart or Winn Dixie. But today my friend ran into my daughter. She knew it was her as soon as she saw her. I was at work. Had I gone to pick up lunch, I would have seen her. This thought makes me happy yet sad. I wonder if it wasn't meant for me to run into her yet. Would have I been prepared? Would she have acknowledged me or not?
All I know it's been a roller coaster this month. Earlier this month I got a text from one of my twins. I was so happy. Still am happy. I called the number but it's been changed now. I don't know if he wanted it changed or someone changed it on him.
All I know is that I love my kids. I am always here for them.
I pray the veil is lifted and they can see the light.
I know God and the angels are working behind the scenes.
I know the time is coming......I feel it.....I will be ready with open arms.
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