Today is the day I truly let go of things that NO longer SERVE me! My thoughts of things that I had carried with me since the day I left an abusive marriage. On April 6, 2015, it will be my 3rd year anniversary of leaving a destructive relationship. During these last 3 years my children have chosen to not have a relationship with me. To say it's been busy would be a lie. As any mother in my shoes would understand, not a day goes by that my children are not in my thoughts and heart. So if there are people "thinking" that I just forgot my children that is not the case! I thank God everyday for giving me the strength and courage to represent myself in court in June. I thank God for allowing the Magistrate to see the truth behind everything!
I was a victor that day. God KNOWS the truth!
I have carried with me broken property for the last 3 years. One because I wanted to have evidence.
Broken cell phones and broken computers. These are physical things that can been seen. But when you have lived 15 years of emotional and verbal abuse those are scars that could not been seen.
When I began my support group Overcoming Verbal Abuse in June 2011. I began that group on Facebook because I felt alone in my pain. I didn't want someone else out there that is going through the same thing as I was to feel alone. I give thanks to God for allowing my page to group to over 3,000 followers. Followers that have been going through what I went through. Followers that have shared their stories with me, personally.
So for someone to say that I don't love my kids - they have the story very wrong!!
I will always love my children even though they do not want to have a relationship with me. Those that know me personally....know how much I miss them and love them. Those that know me personally know what I went through for 15 years...there are things that are better left unsaid. Those things that God knows.
One thing is for sure though "I have forgiven him"!!! I hold no resentment or bitterness. I chose to live in peace.
I have forgiven him ~ Nancy Santana
Today, I throw away these items that NO LONGER serve me! My intentions for 2015 does not include items from the past!
I am clearing my clutter! I am clearing my energy! I am prepare to receive all the miracles God has in store for me.
I want to thank everyone that has been with me from Day 1 of my journey. I want to thank everyone for their support! I know many have said to me how I have inspired you and help you move beyond your abusive relationships.
I want to say....2015 will be our best year yet!
I declare it!
Please feel free to share this story with others....and I look forward to 2015 with you!!
Lots of love & blessings,
Nancy Santana's passion is to empower, motivate, encourage, and inspire you to reach for your dreams and goals.